It's sooo frustrating....

So me and the ex finally met up.
It was very last minute and just as it was all sorted (finally) i remembered that i have laringitus and kind of sound like a man when i talk!

I can't begin to tell you how good it was to see him, this time i was actually prepared and didn't suffer from jelly legs or a heart attack.  He looked exactly the same and he smelled yummy, it gave me goose pimples.
I did what i usually do when i'm nervous and i just chat shit, stuff that he doesn't really need to know about i tell him about. 
I can't remember what we was chatting about and he was talking and then just stopped and was looking into my eyes, which made me freak out cos i didn't know what he was looking at but then when he snapped out of it i relised it was the "...i forgot what i was saying and i kinda wanna kiss you" look.  I just wish he did, but sadly he did not.  He always said he liked my eyes (and bum haha) most!
Finally it got to the point we all had been waiting for, "the talk".  It went well, not as well as i hoped but it least it happened.
Its so frustrating cos he just doesn't get it.  I didn't do anything wrong and I've said everything and done everything i could possibly could do, the only factor with it is fucking time, which i have no control over, i feel so powerless.

I still miss him, but its just not the time for us right now.


Love, Sassy
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